I'm not sure
exactly what the Lord is doing through our endeavors these days. I know He remains faithful and there is rest for the weary. I know He blesses in abundance, and I know this to be true even now. I am certain I will look back on these days (and years) and wonder
how I even did them, but right now, in the present, I can't help but really
love and even treasure them. And I know
that to be a
sole work on His part that I am choosing to embrace. Because let's be honest...some days NOBODY takes a nap and it's a good week before I
really touch base with Gabe, sometimes longer.
While I know big things
are at work, I couldn't ever articulate what specifically
. There is still much excitement and insurmountable peace to be building
something with my husband aside from just these four walls, which is still
very much my biggest role in
this endeavor; the home front. I do know my children are growing and soaking up everything, and we talk deep things, and sometimes our conversations last a
really long time. School has been more of tying heart strings, getting our hands dirty, and long hours of putting
the time in because I know in my heart
now is the time for such things. Never wishing to go back, but rather
making it count. Wanting this foundation as strong as it can be to withstand through time and turbulence and tests. Asher calls me several times a day, if at work with Gabe, to say
he loves me and
misses me. Gabe is happy Asher so very
naturally gets my love language in the 'little' things. It must be Asher's too.
I still remain this
enormous work in progress, constantly being refined and
sought hard after. Molded over, edges smoothed.
What a love story. He's not just calling me to be a
big girl these days, He's calling me to new places in Him, for His glory. He gently leads beside still waters and everything with Him
in is abundance. How could I be lacking right now? Just the opposite. Look who leads me!
Faithful, unmoved, unshaken
by me is what I bask in from Him these days. He helps me see my children as
He does,
really precious and quirky! Full of potential in Him. Called. Funny. Really really funny. Beautiful. Special. He is binding and fashioning
me with them in a way that
clearly was needed, but because
He's faithful to do it. I love that.
I am
ever thankful for a mom,
my mom, who never put pressure or
undeserved weight on things that
truly didn't matter, but rather, put it where it
really belonged. There she was taking care of us kids, living a
quiet and simple life (something I find myself challenged as to what that means and should look like in this day and age with social media outlets, and although I'm not opposed to most, I do wonder what and how much is too much, and honestly?...what would my mom do?), loving my dad with abandon who worked long and grueling
years building a company from the ground up, serving us, serving others, loving Jesus, the opposite of materialistic in
every way (she wasn't into
things or acquiring
more and she embodied and
lived out for me the
very definition of
content in
all seasons of life. My father
knew he found a
gem in her because of it, he
often said so!),
always welcoming, laughing (a lot), patient, simple, kind, quiet, joyful, strong,
consistent...
always. And from the time I was just a little girl
I knew who she
really looked to for her strength and joy and worth. Dad was funny and one of the best, but we all knew it was
God.
I'm
so thankful for the footsteps to
see in the sand and follow hard thereafter simply by
her example.
There just aren't many like it! A living, breathing, tangible expression of how to live these very days
. It never has spoken to me
quite like this all of my prior existence. Maybe it's been preserved for such a time as this, the season being
now.
What a gift I have just been relishing in! Truly and madly!
Thank you Mom. Your life speaks to me every day in some kind of way, and I want to be like you when I grow up!
